I'm back!

The question is: Was I ever really here? Here is so subjective anyways. And constantly changing.

Okay, much too philosophical for this morning. It's rare that I get into a mood to write in this blog, which is too bad, because I enjoy writing. I think my problem is that when I turn this into a journal, then it feels like a burden and something I have to or should do instead of something I want to do. In any case, I have been on a whirlwind of traveling during the weekends, from Berlin to Paris to London to Dolomites to Madrid. And I'm back. It's weird. I feel so alive when I travel but also this sense of guilt when I am traveling as though I am on a vacation, when I think of being in places where even traveling cheaply around Europe on a backpacker's budget is considered an obscene luxury. I keep getting asked when am I going to settle down, and I really really dislike the words "settle down." I don't want to settle down. I want to be free. Free to make a difference, free to live the life with the purpose of achieving what I am supposed to achieve and knowing that I did everything to make that happen. Obviously, I want to establish a home base. I just don't like the words settling down, because they feel confining. Anyways, thoughts for the day. Au revoir.